emo

recently

im very EMO

i want to ask

is everyone hates me??

is everyone 'bo syok' me??

sometimes

i felt my mouth very 'jian'

because what i say will make them 'bo syok' ( i think )

so nobody wants to be friend with me

but what i said is just kidding

i will regret after i said that

but it is too late

and it makes me become more emo

thought everyone in this world hates me

dwn be friend with me

dunno what to do

during holidays very boring

and nobody comes to find me

i just stay at shop or home online

i am WASTING MY TIME!

so sad

T.T

emo-ing

Happy Birthday to myself :)

yeahh

i'm sixteen years old already

finally

i old le

hehe

but

it just a boring day

i just sit in front of the computer

nothing to do

and watch resident evil

haizz

sienzz

night will go out with Rishon lao gong

hee

got a bit happy

but i make my family sad also

they want to celebrate with me

but i just go out with friends

although they say nvm

i know they are very sad

felt very 'kui jiu'

i HURT them badly!!!

T.T

沮丧 + 失望

我很沮丧

我很失望

经过这一次的考试

对自己是无比的失望

我真的是很差

差到无人能比

那股年中考试拼搏的精神到底去哪了??

你能回来吗??

我真的很需要你

对这次年终考试的成绩真的很失望

又听到SJ老师的训话

让我更沮丧了

她说得对

我们都错了

我们不应该只为这次年终考试拼

而是为SPM拼

对自己有这样的心态

真的很失望

><

exam finish!!!

owhh

finally

exam finish

felt very syok

but

i scared to take my result

i scared my worst result will bring me to sc2

i dun want go to sc2 la

although i got more friends at sc2

i dun want let my parents disappointed

T.T

what should i do??

exam coming!!!

end year exam at 8th October

but i so lazy to study

so lazy to memorize the sejarah and biology

until now

i still dunno do the chemistry and add maths

my bm's karangan still same as primary school's karangan

so scare bm will fail

haizzz

next year i dun want go sc2 la

T_T

i ♥ music ♫

felt disappointed to U

felt disappointed to all the boys

all the boys are same

all are flower mouth-s

all are flower heart-s

hate all the boys!!!

T_T

IMPOSSILBLE

learn piano almost 3 years

dunno why i still felt very sia sui

when i saw people who smaller than me can play very very good

when i saw people who same aged with me can play very very good

haizz

sometimes really jealous them

sometimes i dreamed i can play until very well

and can show off to my family

i dreamed i can play ‘Turkish March'

i dreamed i can play 'River flows in you'

i dreamed i can play 'Kiss The Rain'

but it just a dream

it is IMPOSSIBLE

suffer + ing

dunno why

i feel very suffer at here

at San min

at 4sc1

recently

at school

at class

at xxxxx too

everyday also no mood

feel very down

feel very sad

feel very suffer

feel no friend care me

is me think too much??

or really no people want to care about me??

♥ Justin Bieber

recently

i ♥ Justin Bieber

i found out that he is very handsome

and he also same age with me

OMG!!!!

so lengzai

and his song so nice

such as : Baby

nice nice NICE!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kffacxfA7G4

love him so much

♥ ♥ ♥

alone

i know

in this world

no people like me

all people hate me

so

i will give people 'hu lue'

for them

im just invisible

no people will see me

although i want give them see dou me

they also dun want to see

i dunno why will like that

maybe i too yong sui

i too noob

i too stupid

all people hate me

i know

sure is like that

already very disappointed to these kind of things

but

i must sabar

just can smile

cannot cry

now i only know

i am alone

alone

我知道

我一直都是被忽略的那一个

从以前到现在都是

无时无刻都是

永远都是

i hate myself

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

i hate myself!!!

PRS Camp 2010 17/6-19/6

从PRS Camp回来

真的真的很累

星期三进camp时

五点睡 五点四十分就起来

（蛮光荣的 XD）

本来星期四充满活力要迎接我们的ahli

结果看到他们冷冰冰的样子

有一点失望

尤其是对我的组

不过到最后一天看到他们的drama

真的有一点惊喜

他们的drama真的是太棒了

虽然我没有时间一直guide着他们

总以为他们会很差

但他们的表现让我十分感动

那时真的很想哭出来

也谢谢Lai Shan

我不在时你应该很辛苦吧

facilitator的工作就是这样

哈哈

我爱你们！！！

Friend Season！！！

muacks~~

这次是我们Form 4 PRS 最后一次搞camp

真的很舍不得

我永远不忘记你们

不忘记这个camp

不忘记PRS

没有PRS

我们就不会在一起建立这么深厚的感情

朋友 ●一生的承诺

我们约定好

要在下一次camp相聚在一起

不可以毁约哦

^^

new picc

=D

qian help me edit d
XD

wed just back from Ipoh

very happy

i buy jor many things

and eat le many nice food

i hope i can go back to Ipoh again

with my family

and other relatives too

and with my lovely friends also

^^

holiday!!!!

wow

wow

wow

holiday le

so syok

finally can relax for a while

*happy*

because exam also over le

yeah

first time feel so tired for exam

but

when open school

i will die when i see my result

so 'chan bu ren du'

haizz

holiday also got many things wait me to do

PRS camp

and also MORAL FOLIO

WTH!!!!!

i what also havent touch

this holiday sure cham le

T_T

anyway

GAMBATEH^^

secret....

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wired feeling

dunno why i got this wired feeling

want to kill myself

hate myself to have this feeling

= (

+U+U

why i no mood to study??

now saw book also want sleep

but i dun have any time already

exam is around the corner

next friday will be the first day of the mid-year exam

OMG!!!

so fast!!!

1 week later

i will die until very cham

cant believe i what also havent study

so regret now

if i have more time now

i sure will study hard

sure less play computer

sure less watch television

but it is too late

haizz

anyway

i must gambateh

add oil

because next year i cant go sc2

i cannot make my parents sad

+u+u~~

lazy

lolz

recently dunno why become more and more lazy le

today sports day also din go

because i just want to sleep

and dont want wake up

now d me

everyday just want to sleep

study or other activities also lazy to do

no mood to do this do that

so cham

hope i can change this bad habit faster

Gambateh

1 month

1 more month

the mid-year exam will come

so scare

scare this time will get a bad result

i can sure in the exam

i will face many problems

Biology Chemistry Moral Bc Bm

all i dunno how to do

at school

i cant understand what teacher is teaching

even at tuition

i also cant understand

Sejarah is a subject need to memorize

but i know myself is a lazy person

so stress

for me 1 month is not enough to study finish the subject i cant understand

haizz

now i must study hard le

if not

i sure get the last in my class

GAMBATEH

DREAM

yesterday i got a dream

i saw a guy be very good friend with me

i dunno who are him

i just know he treat me so good

he share his problem with me

i also share my problem with him

we are very good friends

but

its not true

it is only a dream

DREAM

XD

难过

经过这次iu day

我才真正发现

原来没有人注意到我的存在

我一点也不重要

就算有一天我失踪了

也没有人发现到吧

就算发现到

可能也不当一回事

那天排练

我哭了

回家想了很久

才发现我哭的原因不是怕我爸爸骂

而是原来没有人在意我

排练的时候没有人注意到我不在

可能是大家都觉得我是一个小角色

这没关系

反正我本来就很小啊

但是

有一个人

十点多的时候

他自己告诉我可以回了

说两点时再来练习到三点

那我就回了

但大家都没有回而继续练习

我就不知道

我想说

如果你不需要我来也应该叫别人跟我说一声啊

你居然还说你没有讲过这些

你是在耍我吗？？

我有证人听到咯

但是事情过了就算了

反正我一直都很讨厌你这种吊儿郎当 自以为是的态度

我想对征量说

对不起

你跟我说对不起的时候我居然不理你

但这并不是你的错

还有子馨

谢谢你那时安慰我

谢谢你^^

其实昨天我爸说不要载我去

是因为他骂我很笨

被人欺负到这样还要去帮他们

现在他叫我不要再参加interact club了

说我笨到死

只会被人欺负

我该继续参加吗？？

我不知道

wah wah wah

wah

yesterday go the store

i saw a people

who is him??

he is ttc

wakaka

already 1 year++ din see him le

he become more and more lengzai le

hahaha

so happy when saw him

he also smile at me

make me paiseh le

XDXD

but din talk with him also

because he was working that time

but one thing make me curious

he not at ipoh study meh

why work at the store geh??

=.=''

tired tired tired

this IU Day

really make me very tired

why??

because just now morning i need go to school for practice

later night still want go yan wei's house practice drama

tomorrow morning still want go san min's primary school to help them

no time for me to do my schoolwork

ishh

and

i dun want wear kimono

why their drama want me to be a japanese girl??

i really dun want wear kimono la

the kimono so leng

but for me wear le

sure very 'ke yeng' d

T_T

haizz

I DUN WANT

I DUN WANT

must be happy =D

recently have bu hao geh yu gan

dunno why just feel got something no good will happen

=.=''

hope is me think too much

hope nothing will happen

everything will be fine

be happy =D

Friendship Forever

♥ steamboat

long time no go bao long steamboat

yesterday with many many friends go there eat

really very syok

long time no so happy le

that day can say is my most happy day in Form 4 life

XD

although had some incident

but finally we still very happy

we take so many photos

be our sweet memory

hope next time we can be together like this again

Friendship Forever

i really love my friends

muacks^^

♥ PRS Camp

June's PRS Camp

is our Form 4 PRS last camp

all of us will use our heart to make it better than last year's camp

this camp sure make us very tired

but i know it is 'zhi de' d

through these PRS camps

i feel very happy

because can know u all these good friends

i hope we can mantain our friendship

and also this PRS camp

all AJK must add oil

to make it PERFECT

GAMBATEH^^

失眠

lolx~~

recently 失眠

(T_T)

dunno why

haizzz

辛苦

时间过得好快哦

再过几天

就到4月了

也就是Form 4的第4个月

不知道为什么

上了Form 4

有好多不满

却不知道在不满什么

(=.='')

好好笑哦

昨天上Sejarah时

Pn.Lew 说了一些故事

她告诉我们上了Form 4的心情会是怎样的

她说的话

让我十分赞成

也让我差一点哭了出来

她说得对

上了Form 4的我

每一天都觉得很伤心，很忧郁

可是却不知道为了什么而伤心

有很多不满

有很多不开心的事

却不知道要跟谁说

之前阿姨帮我们整家人求签

我的签说有心事就要向父母说

可是我很难想象我跟他们说后他们会有什么表情

所以还是算了

现在的我

总觉得每一天都很辛苦

为什么？？？

我也不知道

(T_T)

tired

today merentas desa

make me so tired

wake up early in the morning

cant sleep well

my leg now still very pain

(><)

still need to finish my homework

hate it

now really hate school

at school everyday want give teacher scold

no go for latihan rumah sukan also want get borang

haizz

this year really make me tired

many problems happen

make my mood really down

i really hope u still beside me

but i know it is impossible

fed up already

now

i want to sleep

and hope that i can never wake up

悄悄話

眼淚常常不聽話 因為我們都曾經很傻
太多的虛假 太多人很掙扎 太多傷痕被留下
感情闖了禍 我會陪伴你度過 面對無解的明天 不再軟弱
時間犯了錯 但我不許你寂寞 朋友讓愛很簡單 不再沉默

或許心情很複雜 太多說不出的話
秘密在心中萌芽 問題找不到解答
我永遠都在這裡 聽著你說 悄悄話

也許追不上變化 也許世界真的那麼大
感情闖了禍 我會陪伴你度過 面對無解的明天 不再軟弱
時間犯了錯 但我不許你寂寞 朋友讓愛很簡單 不再沉默

我們都有太多牽掛(太多牽掛) 太多說不出的話
秘密在心中萌芽 問題找不到解答
我永遠都在這裡 聽著你說 悄悄話

當你需要勇氣 我就在這裡 心和心沒有距離
或許心情很複雜 太多說不出的話
秘密在心中萌芽 問題找不到解答
我永遠都在這裡 聽著你說 悄悄話

======================================

突然很喜欢这首歌^^

我..不想当下一个..

最近

不知道是怎样

好像变得很敏感

觉得很多朋友都好像不爽我

不喜欢我

很讨厌我

觉得没有朋友

真的很希望是自己心里作用

haizz

觉得有一个'她'好像不爽我

在我facebook的status好像'zat'我这样

也在别人的page说我

不知道'她'是开玩笑还是怎样

haizz

人真的很恐怖

学校就是有很多这么恐怖的人

只要你做一些小事弄到他们不爽

你就注定没朋友了

真的真的很害怕我是下一个

我不想当下一个

( >,< )

疼女友的45种方式...

疼女友的45种方式...

1.向新朋友介绍女友时，请搂着她的腰，而不是站在一旁用手指点。
2.在街上遇见美女凝视时间不超过5秒，并迅速指出那位美女与她相比较的美中不足。
3.如果她做错了事，心里已经很难过，请主动承担起你应该甚至不应该承担的责任吧。
4.听女友话的男人才会有出息，所以，你要乖乖听她的话。
5.她可以欺负你，但你绝对不可以欺负她，因为她虽然欺负你，但是每次有什么好东西，她第一个想到的就是你!
6.要是她朝你哭，你要不厌其烦地哄她，直到她破涕为笑!
7.把她的照片帖到钱包，手机……一切经常看到的地方。
8.离开她绝对不超过十天以上
9.在她的朋友面前，希望你可以表现得比平时更疼爱她和紧张她的样子。
10.大男人不表示霸道.
11.温柔不等于没主见。
12.潇洒不等于没交代
13.不要老是在我问她“去那里比较好”，“吃什么”等等的时候说“随便”，这不等于是你在迁就她，只表示你没有心思搭理她.
14.要经常对她说“我爱你”，否则她会假设你不爱她
15永远不要在公众场合对她呼呼吼吼又或是撇下她一人。
16.她做错事情的时候教训她不要紧，最重要的是在那之后要哄
17.发脾气时不要不理她，不要给时间她让她冷静，其实她完全不需要时间冷静。
18.可以陪自己的朋友，但一定要重色轻友。
19.她看动画片，你不但不准笑话她，还要跟她一起看。
20.在她想你时，争分夺秒地挤出时间与她约会
21.看她的眼神无比专注。
22.话的语气情深意长。
23.能做到客观的得看到其它优秀的女孩，但主观认为她才是最好的
24.有女孩和你说话，你要拉着她的手，如果她恰巧不在旁边，那么请你跟她们保持距离。
25.过马路的时候牵着她的手。
26.要懂得珍惜和她在一起的每分钟。
27.就算再忙，每天都不忘打一个问候的电话
28．要常常唱情歌给她听。
29.两个人都有发火的权利，但不能同一天, 如果那一天她发火了，那你就不可以发火了。
30.女友生活中不顺心，你要循循善诱、帮忙分析，提出建设性方案若干
31.要非常爱你的女友---她，坚决拥护女友的决定，服从女友的领导。
32.留意其它女生不得超过5秒钟，看同一女生累计不得超过5次。
33.即使全世界的人都不相信她，你也要无条件相信她。因为她也会同样对你。
34.她穿了好看的衣服，你要衷心赞美。
35.严禁在女士(3岁－80岁)面前耍贫，放电。若有违反，视情节严重程度，由女友从严、从快进行严厉打击.任何人、任何形式的狡辩，抵赖都将按妨碍司法公正论处。
36.不抽烟。一经发现立即开除。
37.与女友吵架每次陈述不得超过3分钟(含)，音量不得超过20分贝(含)。
38.要加强锻炼，强健身体,一口气抱她上到五楼
39.在她心情遭透，蛮横发脾气的时候，抱抱她，而不是和她理论。
40.希望不会出现手机没电而她又没有其它办法联系到你的现象，如果能频频主动打电话告诉她“我想你了”并随时汇行踪则更好。
41.她身上有很多缺点，她已经够苦恼了，请不必随时向她提醒。
42.女友不讲理是撒娇而不是撒野。
43.她所有的事情都好想跟你分享、虽然你不一定会明白但是希望你会装做你在听。
44.女友送的东西一定要天天带在身边
45.最重要的一点：要永远认为女友是对的。因为...她是最爱你!!

=============================================

看了这个

如果真的有这样的男友真好

哈哈

不知道找不找得到呢

xD

开心的一天

今天是年初五

跟欣翊，欣瑶还有静雯出去了

去了McD

再去Giant

过后又回来McD

好累

不过很开心

真的很开心

好久没那么开心了

我们也聊了很多东西

超羡慕欣翊找到boy了

哈哈

恭喜她

希望他们可以长久

我呢

则谢谢你们这班sisters

在我身旁support我

真的很谢谢你们

但

一回到家里

开了电脑

开了msn

看到他找我

真的很吓到

他问了我去哪里

告诉他后

他居然跟我说他刚刚在Steak Factory

真的有点炸到

也许我们的无缘吧

haizz

但没遇见他也好

遇见了他也不知道要说什么

但也很开心

因为今天是他分手后第一次主动找我

但我知道也会是最后一次

但是今天

我真的很开心

I ♥ My Friends

I ♥ My Friends
thx u all stay wif me
at here support me
love u all^^

我不想思考了

到现在我才发现

原来我的朋友真的很少

原来每次都只有我孤单单一个人

做自己的事情

我永远参与不了他们

看得出他们也不想要让我参与

每当我走到他们的gang时

我永远都是透明人

没有人会注意到我的存在

就算注意到

也不会理我

自己讲自己的东西

我没有属于自己的gang

我只是孤单单的一个人

最近真的很多事发生

让我很烦

我不想管了

不想思考了

累了

新的开始

新的一年

新的开始

上了4S1

要努力读书

现在很多补习

星期一到星期五都有补习

累死人

好像回到Form 3的感觉

每天只会赶补习

超级无敌累

haizz

不过为了SPM

这应该是好事

今年不再是honeymoon year了

明年的我绝对不能被人家踢下来

Form 4很难

不过只要我努力

我想一定能追得上的

加油！！！