Sunday, September 23, 2012

Can I?

UPSR 7A又怎样?

PMR 8A又怎样?

SPM 9A又怎样?

现在的我根本就没有用

现在的我很失败

现在的我很无助

我到底应该怎么做?

能不能有一天我变得更坚强一点?

能不能有一天我的父母会以我为傲?

能不能有一天我会变成一个有用的人  为我身边的人做一些改变?

One day, I will make my parents proud of me.

I want to be a successful person but not a person who keep seeking help from others.

I want to be the strong one but not the one who been laughed by others.

Can I?


Saturday, September 22, 2012

Holidays!

okay! gonna post something about my last week holidays

Went back to the hometown by bus and the journey was damn tired

Slept on the bus and listened to the mp4

Luckily I still got music accompanied me in the journey

Reached home at seven something 

Got excited after I saw the everything in Teluk Intan

Seriously I can't imagine the moment when I need to left here again

I don't want to go back to Subang 

Its just because I don't wanna to face the stressful life  

The next day was Lee Ying aka Brenda Lee's birthday! And finally I decided to buy a pair of orange shoes for her.

So bad that I forget to take the picture of the pair of shoes because I was rushing on that day

After that we went to Q box for her birthday celebration 

At first we want to give her a surprise but we FAILED! Because everyone was late and she came early.

Oh just fine then we sang karaoke and I bought a cake for her too

It was Tiramisu favour and it was so nice

We used to took some photos through Bryan Poh's camera but so bad he didn't upload it

I think he have to get a scold from me ahaha!

But luckily I used my phone to take some pictures with the birthday girl :)









Grace, RongRong and Brenda ♥ 

The few days after this even I just stay at home. LOL

I planned to study but I FAILED again!

Brought whole beg of books back to home but end up like this.

I didn't study at all! Take a guess what I did?

Watched Running Man and some variety shows with my mum! LOL

Thats how my life goes on when I'm free because I don't like to study

My laziness causes me to become like this! Haiz

Finally until Thursday I went to Grace's house. 

I planned to study with her but for sure I failed. Again.

I asked her many questions about Chemistry and she taught me. 

Luckily I understood some of them.

After that we ended up with gossiping some sampat things! Girls are always like that. Hmmm

So fast until Friday OMG >< I went to watch Resident Evil : Retribution with Jenni.

I love Resident Evil as my idol is Alice! xD 

Actually I like to watch whatever movies about zombies ahaha

Although I scare to watch, I still love it such as this movie and The Walking Dead.

Oh ya the season three of The Walking Dead is coming soon! I can't wait for it kekeke

Resident Evil : Retribution is so nice! I love it and there is a new character in it : Ada Wong.

But the ticket costed me RM18 WTF 

Damn expensive although it was in 3D

Anyway we enjoyed it so much

It made me feel like want to become the characters in the movie

Hold the guns and kill those zombies woohoo


I love this scene so much! 那些年僵尸们一起追的女孩 xD


And I can't wait for the Resident Evil 6! 

The war between the Humans and the Red Queen and the zombies!

After the movie Wei Pin fetched us to Old Town to yum cha and we met some old friends hehe

Then, we changed to McD again as the second round.

Jenni went back earlier at 11pm while Wei Pin and I continued our gossips until 1am.

Sometimes I felt 心酸 when I realised that I treat someone as a very good friend.

But they didn't care about me at all. I'm just invisible to them.

However there are always some of them stand with me when Im really down

Appreciate them and PUI those fake friends!

The last day of my holidays in Teluk Intan!

I hanged out with Pei Ting and Wei Pin

We met each other at McD then decided to change place to KFC!

LOL 女人是善变的! xD

After having our 'tea time', we went to Menara Condong.

It is the most famous historical building in my hometown

But I didn't go there before /.\

So we decided to go there and we took lots of crazy photos

Lets photos tell the stories =) 


They was Gangnam Style-ing LOL


Crazy people took the photo from bottom




And Finally Sunday came :(

I went to Sungai Besar which is a place in Selangor 

Many of my relatives live there and we celebrated my grandpa's birthday on that day

And, I cut my hair too. 

Nobody realise about it ahaha!

Actually I decided to go back to Subang on Sunday but my parents advised to stay for one more day

Because of my grandpa

That day his condition was not good too and we actually didn't sing Birthday song to him :(

I scare... I scare this year will be the last year we celebrated with him

Why? Why must him? Why must lung cancer?

Grandpa didn't smoke at all. He always have a healthy lifestyle but WHY?!

He loves us so much. He likes to cook for us especially his grandchildren

I really hope that he will be recover soon SERIOUSLY!

I remembered that he tell me to be more independent 

He told me don't too rely on my parents so much

He told me he was happy when he saw me grew up a lot after I came back from NS

I couldn't accept this T.T

Please! Everything will be alright.

P/S : Took some photos with my cousin too :)



Then the next morning I came back to Subang. 

Really early in the morning and I reached at 9.30am.

Spent a boring day in my room and I wasted my time

Face the stressful life again and forever alone life

One and the half year go faster please

Another P/S: Ming Cing I miss you faster come back la! T.T

So end up the holiday post with this photo as I like it so much.









Friday, September 7, 2012

Trust myself

Mid term of semester Break on next week

Yeah my holiday mood totally turns ON!

Home is the best as I never want to leave it

But challenges become more and more after the holidays

Tests Tests Tests then finally First Sem exam!

Then whats after it? 

AS and A2 exam!!!

Ohhhh Goshhhh I couldn't accept it

I just want a relax college life

A level is damn difficult 

Sometimes I wonder how I managed to handle 10 subjects when I was in SPM

Now its only 4 subjects but I'm already become mad about it

This subject combination is damn scary

Maths, Chemistry, Physics and Further Maths

Oh my goodness why I choose this combination?

But what I know is I shouldn't give up easily

never because this is my choice

I saw my classmate withdraw from the program and I influenced by her

However I changed my mind again

Look forward and do not look backwards

Throw away those sad memories and I can be stronger 

Without you, my life is better.

Shouldn't trust anyone - The only one I can trust is myself