Am I expected for too much?

Am I expected for too much? 

十八岁的生日

我原以为会轰轰烈烈的过

我原以为会有一大班朋友帮我庆祝

却只有三个朋友和我喝茶

除了失望还是失望

算了吧 

希望越大 失望越大

永远永远都只是一场空

最好笑的是 十八岁的生日 

我居然没有吹蜡烛 没有许愿

都是我自己的错

I hate further maths!

Another question I keep asking myself recently

Further Maths, should I drop you?

But seems like my classmates don't feel like want to drop it

It will be very weird if I am the only one who drop it :(

Seriously I like to do maths but don't know why I HATE further maths.

You make me headache 

You make me so stress

You make me insomnia 

You make me want to cry

You make me become more and more emo

Feel like want to give up just because of you!!!

Wasted my time just because of you

Face to face with you for the whole day but I can't solve any of it

Wasting my time and I can't do revision of other subjects

My maths, My physics, My chemistry!!!

All my marks for my tests were like shit! 

I think I couldn't get a good forecast already Grrrrr

And WHY Further Maths got two papers?

Two different papers and I need to do two different exercises and revision

But then after doing it I still cannot understand any of it

I still feel so blur OMGoshhhh

Now, I totally can't handle my four subjects.

hmmm It should be five because further maths got two papers ishhh

First time feel so depressed in my academic

It proves that my mind was totally wrong 

Before I came here I thought CAL is very easy

WRONG WRONG WRONG!!! I'm totally wrong!

I think it is much more difficult than the STPM haizz

What should I do? 

Semester one exam is coming soon ishhhhhh

At first I don't think forecast is important for me

But now I don't think so anymore

It decides how others look at you

I don't want people look down at me

I don't want anymore

Have to walk out and let everyone know actually I'm actually not that weak 

I can do it, right? 

hopefully T.T

And the last thing is : Should I drop it?