Sorry to myself

I am a silly girl

Always

Planned this for a few days

And what I get was just disappointment 

I have to face the reality 

Time will cure everything

Through this experience only I know that who is the one that really remember me

Seriously now only I realise that I am the only one who are still waiting at there

Everyone has move ahead especially you but I still hope that everything will turn backwards

Say sorry to myself 

Say sorry to my heart

对自己的心说声对不起

让你受委屈了

停止虐待自己

现在也该对我自己好一点了

When you see me or hear my name

Do you feel any sort of regret or guilt for the things you did?

Suddenly memories flew out from my mind in these few days

I know I am the most stupid one who are still stuck at there 

Time flies and sometimes I wonder what are you doing now and whether the things that you learnt are same with me

Its a weird and funny thinking

You never know that Im just pretend that I am okay and fine after so many months

You will never know it

回忆你是多么的伤人

请你不要再突然的给我涌上心头了

那真的很痛苦

请你体谅一下

让一切都归零吧

Another week :)

woots 

another week is coming

have to face it again /.\

study study and study

Lots of works are waiting for me especially Further Maths

Lecturer please think of our situation

Its only the first week but you post lots of works on Facebook

Do you think we are God?

Can finish so many questions within 2 and the half days?

I want to go back to TI to meet my friends

Holidays come faster please

I hate studying alone!

Its a miracle that Im studying since the first week of my college life

When I was in secondary school I started to do self-studies one month before my exam

Its really a miracle and I couldn't believe it

Justin Bieber, KARA and Jay Park had MTV Stage at Sunway yesterday

So sad that I couldn't go for it

Its the second time that I missed Justin Bieber

owhhhhhh

Big Bang is coming too!!!!

I really want to go for it!!!

But the cost of the tickets are damn expensive and I don't have transport too

ishhhhhh

Hope that everything will turn better so I could go for it

Just have to look forward and pray hard

Further Maths... Challenge accepted!

I will drop you if you still killing me like this

So please treat me better and better

Specially thanks to Counsellor Ms Lisa Leong

Thanks for giving me advice when I was in trouble 

and my cute housemate -Winnie too!

You are just great and lights up my every single day at here!

Thanks God to let you become my housemate!

The best housemate ever :)

Recently struggling with many things

I hate to plan for my future

But I must plan for it

Its killing me to think this and think that

Why I can't just go back secondary school and study back PMR or SPM?

Hmmm I just kidding

I really stress now

Getting down and down and down

I think I am slowly get into depression

Going to be crazy

Should I drop Further Maths?

The subject is so difficult but I don't want to be alone there

Should I change my subjects combination?

Take Bio and change to another class

It means that I have to get new friends and be alone again

Im not really like Bio because I hate to memorize things and doing experiments

But if I want to take optometry in my future, I should take it.

Some universities require Bio in A level and it will be safer

So what should I do?

I am very very tired 

Feel so awkward at college when ppl don't know what I was saying when I spoke English

I hate my broken English so much

Bigger stress when I think about IELTS test

How could I pass the test with this NOOB English?!

Every lecturer and staffs thought that everyone at Taylor have very high level of English

what could I only say : DAFUQ??!! STRESS!!!! 

so bad that Im not good at all

Sometimes I really wish that I don't need to study already

I just want to play and play and play

Sounds funny and childish

Ya I admit that Im still childish and not mature yet

I should have to be tough and look forward to my future

I shouldn't look backwards 

I shouldn't think about those memories again

I shouldn't say '早知道 早知道'

I shouldn't cry easily

All I have to do is accepting the truth and fight for it

Looks funny

I really looks like a clown

Keep repeating these sentences again and again

But I still cannot make it

Im still cannot let them go

Im still holding them tightly

Why I am so coward?

Why I couldn't be more brave?

Tears almost drop everyday

I just need someone to accompany me

A true friend

Laugh with me and talk with me 

Don't want to eat breakfast, lunch or dinner alone

Don't want to walk alone

Don't want to sit alone

Don't want to talk to myself alone

Everyday I miss my friends

MingCing, Jenni, Grace, KaiShi, PeiTing, WeiPin, PeiJin....

I miss everyone whoever appeared in my secondary school life

Miss the moments we played together

We laughed together

We gossiped together

Miss PRS Miss Interact Miss Tang Soo Do

Whatever I just don't want to be alone

Don't want stress

Don't want to be so suffer

I really miss everyone

My family My friends

I really miss you. :(

Be strong!!!

I feel so guilty

I feel so worried

I feel so stress

I feel so suffer

I scare forever alone

Im guilty to use a lot of money of my parents

Felt so sorry

Its all my fault

I should have to think properly before I make the decision

See the money flies away I feel so suffer and sorry to them

Feeling like want to cry

Hate my tears so much

I hate myself

Why am I so coward?

Don't have any confidence and so weak

Im really tired

And feel suffer too

Hope everything will be alright

July please treat me better

I will get use to it

Definitely will

Just have to be tough

Be strong

Be confident

Be myself!!!